I Cut My Hair Off (Finally)

A beautiful girl is always attributed to long and straight hair. It's not always, anyway, but commonly. So, ladies and gentlements, are we still questioning what is stated above? I ever thought that it was right. Why? Because as my tracking and monitoring, a long-haired girl is usually more good looking and alluring than the short-haired one. They usually looked more gorgeus, feminine, and elegant as well. I used to like it and I wanted to grow my hair (at least until it exceeds the lower end of my chests). And why did I want to grow it and keep it? Because I can create lots of hair style with a long hair, I can use varying accessories stuck on our hair any time I wanna, I can make others impressed with the softness of my silky hair when they stroke it, and my hair would look totally awesome when it blown by the wind.

However, sometimes a long hair creates a problem, whether it is minor or major, it is still recognized as a problem. And hair loss is my major problem, dude. I could lost my hair until 50 strands a day, whether it is while I was brushing it, or it happened naturally and suddenly any time without permission and it caused a dinginess in my room and also in my shirt. I was so tired to see lots of hair laid disorderly everywhere. And I couldn't hardly imagine if it's continue to happen, my head could possibly be bald as the old guy, since it always fall off everytime.

I was so terribly sick of it, and my sister always repeated her irrittating command to cut my hair off. She said that it's better for me to cut my hair off than I lost all of my hair since it fell off too much. And she also said that I would look more fresh after I cut my hair. At one point, I saw Song Hye Kyo (a korean actress) in a movie drama titled "The World that They Live In" with a short hair cut. And she is still look gorgeous and pretty as usual, even with the short hair. Her hair was long before, as it seen in Endless Love and Full House. My mom said that I would look great in that hairdo, just like Song Hye Kyo in that movie. I didn't really care much about it and at that moment, I still want to preserve my hair. About two months later, after all the suck school orientation in my campus had already over, I was thinking to get my hair cut, (yes, my hair fell off more often day by day), and then I searched for any short-haired celebs picture from the internet. I found Katie Holmes picture with her short hair, and I thought that it was pretty cool. And yes, it gave me inspiration, and as you can see right now my hairdo is similar with hers.
And I still look gorgeous. LOL.

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I wish I never learned how to smile if I know that it would turn into a warm but feeling cold water came out from our eyes but actually came out from our heart that we call it TEARS

I wish I never feel a happiness that would probably serve me a pleasant feeling yesterday if it would turn into a sadness that devastatingly shred, tear, and broke my fragile heart today

I wish I never ever had a dream at all if I know that all of them are just BULLSHIT and never close to reality

I wish I could never feel anything if I know that this feeling is just the sweet but pathetic and tornful illusory


I wish I never ever had a heart cause the heart never lies and finally it is unfold no matter how hard we try to conceal what it is portrayed and also hidden


I wish I could be an angel so I could come and go to leave this earth and I would never be able to feel any emotions and lustful and desire which become a pride for human kind but at the end become an irreversibly regrettable foolish sentiment for them

created by : myself (blog owner)
when we were down, we might think about this, but we must be grateful for every breathe, heart, love, and life given to us. Nothing more precious than being born in this world.

I Wish I Had Blue Eyes

What kind of color is avalaible for eyes? Can we pick any one from them? Yes, the blue one, please. (Do you think that you can buy it just like you buy soft lens?)

Ehm.... Never mind what it's written above. I just want to tell you that my eyes colour is just ordinary. Nothing special in it. My eyes are black. You know that I am Asian. (but some friends of mine have brown eyes, even my mother's eyes are brown, and it's not herditary to me, though). That's good then. I am 100% ASIAN. At least this is what you can see when you meet me, even you can conclude this at the first time you saw my picture. But I still sure that I have such kind of Western blood, due to what my grandpa's look-like. He really looked like Western people, with his brown eyes and hair (his hair is gray, now), very fair skin, tall figure, prominent nose, and the brown spots in his skin. And it's made me uncertainly believe that I'm 100% Asian.

Talking about eyes, I have a silly story about it. It was happened about one week ago. In my campus, there are some foreigners, and some of them are Kaukasian. When I was queing at ATM, there were two European guys came and start queing. I was paying attention for them for a while. Based on what I heard, I concluded that they're not speaking in English. And I'm pretty sure about it (I know how English would be heard, even with Scotland accent). I was looking at their eyes color, and they were blue both. Although that blue were not quite beauty and enchanting, but probably they were better than mine which are black. Then I spontaneously said, "I wish I had blue eyes" with normal volume, but my friend said that I was speaking aloud. I thought that they would not understand what I was saying. But it seemed that I was misscalculated. They understood, dude. Then they were staring at me. My friend really know well about that situation. And she seemed to be shy to have a silly friend like me. I acted as I was an innocent girl who never made a mistake and as if there was nothing happened. And after me and my friend left, she said that actually that two European guys were speaking in English, just with strange and uncommon accent. But I was definitely sure that they weren't. I'm definitely and absolutely sure, actually. Ha ha ha...

As Long As We Still Young

I can confidently state that I still young, unless I am not sure whether I still belong to "teenager" category or not. So, what? What I want to underline here is.... the fact that I still young and perhaps some of you, guys and gals who read this are still young too.. I mean, we, as the young people and young generation should express our gratitude by using this time as well as we can. When we made a mistake in this young age, it can affect our future, bad future is in our threshold if we did it.
Ha ha ha ha... Again and again,,, I act as if I am the most wise person in this world.

Just take it easy, dude... Actually what I want to say and stress is... ENJOY your young periode as long as you can inhale it. It wont be happen twice (except you believe in reincarnation theory). When you old, your hair, your skin, your face, your body shape wouldn't look like this anymore. It would be so... horrible at that hideous moment. That firm skin would be... GONE!! That beautiful hair would be... FADE AWAY. The power that you have now... would be so LOW. And that's why, take your time and enjoy your life. And this is like what I'm doing, I really like to wear a very attractive outfit. Not just simply casual and ordinary. Until my seniors in campus gave "Miss Nu Rave" title to me. At first, I didn't get what the heck "Miss Nu Rave" means. But now I know the reason. It was because of my extraordinary clothes that I used to wear. It wouldn't be extraordinary if I lived in Japan, Hongkong, or Korea. But the thing is... I live in Indonesia. Ha ha ha ha...
Fashion will die, but STYLE will last forever.


Come on baby, when you finally get old one day, you won't be able to wear those attractive and gaudy clothes again. I mean you can, with people around you laughing at you. When you're old, you won't be able to dance actively and attractively again. You're shocking pink wedges won't suit your feet again, you're green eyeshadow won't be looked great in your make up, those big earrings can't decorate your ears anymore, and you won't be able to color your hair in blue. Ha ha ha... I bet you don't have this courage to do this in that oldy age. So, take your times and relax... Enjoy your life!

The Useless Stuff That We Bought

First thing first, let me introduce myself. My name is Ethenia. This is my 3rd blog, actually. But this is my first blog of which I write everything from the cornerstone of my heart.

Just like any other girl, (I still feel that I am a girl, "big girl" is most suitable term, I think ^.^ ), I like to go shopping, go to the mall and sightseeing for every single place, counter, and stuff that I met. This case is not only prevail in mall, but also in a small kiosk that sell accessories, jewellery, clothes, gadget, until books. Pfff... So, do we have any similarity? Go on.... Lately, I realize that I have so many clothes, bags, and accessories (hat, jewellery,and all that silly girly stuff) that I keep these things in any places disorderly. Yeah, those unimportant things make my closet full and mussy. And the problem doesn't exist only in that case, hell yeah, and it is perplexed me to decide which clothes that I would wear, which bracelet that I would pick to decorate my wrist, which bag that I would carry to campus, etc. Then, this problem and perplexities put all the unused stuff becoming useless. (since I never wear it due to unsuitable thoughts, or I wear it but only once in a year). How poor that stuff is....

So, the question is....
Why did I buy that crazy useless thing?
Hmmm... maybe it was happened due to my intense desire that ordering myself to.. first, come to that counter, second, seeing around over there, third, stop my view at one spot, fourth, touch that stuff, fifth, imagine myself in a perfect and flawless shape with that thing, and finally sixth... tempted to bring it home (by buying it, of course). Oh, I forgot to add the most important thing, which is checking for the price and how much money that I bring at that time, ha ha ha.... (I know that all of you do that, unless you are Warren Buffet, Bill Gates, and Donald Trump) Actually I don't know whether they think before they buy something or not, LOL.

AND IT'S NOT OVER YET....
I also do that in the term of the thing that we called "cosmetic". Uhhhh.... Even right now I have four shampoos, and the one that I use is only ONE among them, while I let the rest stand useless in the rack. How come? Maybe I belong to a person who like to try and alternate between some products that I am interested to category. And sometimes when I go to supermarket, I am trapped into a new luscious-likely cosmetic product of which I saw the advertisement on television. Yeah, I am an "ad victim". The product seemed to be so gorgeous and flawless on television and it seemed that all the girl who use it would be the same pretty as the model. I mean, I wish I could be as gorgeous as the model when I use the product, even for the first time use. Even, whether my lotion, compact, and lipgloss at home is empty or filled, it doesn't make any difference, neither, any effect to stop my eager to buy that cosmetic product. Then I make a plea reason in my heart, "This product is different, because it is glossy, and mine at home is not". Ha ha ha...


I THINK THAT IT'S NOT ONLY ATTACK GIRL...
It attacks guy also, maybe... But in another terms, not those "beauty" things above.
But who knew that there are several guys who really care about their "beauty" and do more silly things than I did?
Okay, I heard that someone ask me to stop... ("STOP IT!!" ,he said) No offense before...
The things that I mean is book and magazine, anything that we read.
So yeah, I was pushing myself so hard to read the books... Anykind of book... Novels, science, and last but not least... DICTIONARY!!!
I like to go to bookstore... Seeing around... Looking at some interesting books with interesting covers. While wise man says, "Don't judge a book by its cover" (no relevance, anyway). And yes, I am looking for best seller books. Does it mean that when my friends read a super mega best seller book then I go with them? Oh it's not, lady... It's not that simple to influence me, even in "what I want" level until "my stance and point of view" level. I go to bookstore occasionally, not every month, but longer than that. One in a two-month maybe... But last week, I went to a big book bazar in my town. There are hundreds title of book in sale. And you know what, I bought ten books at that moment. Crazy.... Guess what? None of them that I have read... And now I am pumping my spirit up to read them one by one. I suppose that it will took three months to finish it.

Now you get the point... It still has relevance with the "beauty things and the clothes" above... It such kind of useless... I bought something that I was not sure if I could finish it or use it or not... I have no idea why did I buy all that stupid things. I just want to buy it? Or... I really need to use it? Then, I have learned my lesson well. That we just need to buy something that we really need, this is not about what you want at that crucial moment anymore (not crucial anyway, I just put an exaggeration). But perhaps some of us have the same problem, which is about regretful feelings for not buying a very unique, scarce, and cute stuff that we absolutely no doubt that none of our friends ever have it. Well, save your regrets later. Ha ha ha ha... Just kidding. I don't want to influence you to have the best regretful moment in your life. Save your money for more important things (your school, maybe). I act as if I was that wise. Ha ha ha...